unworthy facade 2000

I told you I was unworthy
I told you there would be no chase
and that when I start to feel for someone
I put up the barricades
But I thought you were different
I thought you were true
I thought you’d see thru me
and my facade
I was wrong and you are the same
as all others in this nightmare called life
you didn’t chase me
and here I sit drowning in pain
I have to tell you though
another have I not met
who I let in so close and so quick
and right now I am kicking myself
I want you to know
you gave me back my inspiration
instead of chuckling at loves gone wrongs
inside I am grieving and trembling
I think you should see
though my tear stained eyes
I was wondering why it was so hazy out
and it was me with real tears
I need you to feel
the weight of my limbs
the sheer force to carry around
my heart without you
I told you I was unworthy
I told you there would be no chase
and that when I start to feel for someone
I put up the barricades
But I thought you were different
I thought you were true
I thought you’d see thru me
and my facade